To my First Born

An open letter to my daughter – my first born, and soon to be sister to her brother

Hey baby girl… your world is going to change so much – you will love it when your brother is here, but I know there will be times you feel like mommy and daddy are spending more time with him instead of you.

I know you can’t read yet, or fully understand everything I am writing to you, but one day you will.

As your parents we are so blessed to have you in our lives – we wished so hard to be parents – and could not believe our luck that we would be parents to not one beautiful soul but two.

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Many nights while I was pregnant with you, I would dream about what my little girl would be like, I tried to picture your face, and how you would talk, what it would feel like when I could hold you in my arms. What would be my emotions when you first spoke, first said I love you and called me mommy. My imagination was not big enough, rich enough, to really comprehend what it would be like when it did happen. You have exceeded all my expectations of what being your mother would feel like.

For two years, I thought it would just be you and me (and of course daddy) – just a family of 3, and all my attention would be yours, and you all to me (and dad). Now I get to share your amazing spirit, with another part of our family your brother, you will love him, as he is part of you as you are your parents. You will love him fiercely, and protective against his new world around him.

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Some days you won’t feel like being the perfect sister, which is okay, sometimes you will want mommy and daddy just for you. We understand, and hope we are wise enough to guide you through this transition in life. There will be moments that you get upset and mommy too, many sleepless nights are ahead of us, and that mean a little bit of grumpy moments can be expected. Just know that mommy does not mean it if I snap, and I am sorry when I do, I will try be understanding and the best I can be in those moments.

My dreams now are filled with thoughts of how you and your brother will be. How our lives will change, how we will adjust. Soon our family of four will be the status quo, 4 will be normal – but I will never forget the time it was just us 3.

Love you baby girl… or big girl as you would correct me, cause you are not a baby anymore.

7 thoughts on “To my First Born

    1. Thanks so much Nabila. One day I hope she will read my blog and have an understanding of motherhood – maybe even as she becomes a mother herself one day… like a very very very long time from now.

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  1. Beautiful piece my friend. Can’t believe how time has flown. I can’t wait for your “big girl” to be a “big sister” and for you guys to become parents to two.

    You all are going to be amazing!

    Sending you love.

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  2. Beautiful piece my friend. Can’t believe how time has flown. I can’t wait for your “big girl” to be a “big sister” and for you guys to become parents to two.

    You all are going to be amazing!

    Sending you love.

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